2 weeks ago…
My buddies took me to Vegas, Like las Vegas. It was my 50th birthday half a century. I did not have any fun birthday plans on the contrary, I was going to spend my birthday in the comfort of my own home . The home that still haunts me daily , with old memories of my wife cooking in the kitchen with the aromas of her famous past sauce , or the rocking chair that sits in the corner of our huge living room , where she sat with our children reading them bed times stories and learning the abcs . Carrie and I got married to young and maybe that was a contributing factor in our divorce. At 22 I was clueless. I believed I was invincible , I met Carrie at a college party , I would love to tell you that I took one look at her across the room and I knew she was the “one” my soul mate , my other half. Yet that was not the case, I thought her best friend was hotter , I think her name was Paige. Now don’t get me wrong Carrie was beautiful she was 21 when I met her with long chestnut colored hair and bright green eyes, but her best friend was a hot blonde with huge boobs so my immature man instincts took over, I went straight for Paige like a salivating dog. She was sitting down on a green couch, flipping her hair, she was surrounded by 4 guys all with hungry looks in their eyes, The couch was a 4 seater . So I knew she must be uncomfortable squished in the middle. I took a seat on the bar stool, giving me a bird’s eye view on the scene. I saw Carrie across the room , she looked like she was trying to get away what looked to me like a strange looking guy she must have thought so too because then Carrie came and sat next to me , that’s what started it all that moment in time. Fast forward 2 months and were in the CRAZY STUPID & IN LOVE stage. I propose after 2 inseparable months I figured once you’ve found her , you’ve found her . I couldn’t think of a reason to wait any longer.
Now 28 years later , I can only smile at this , this memory . As I break from my flash back. I start thinking about how we failed. No I failed. Carrie left me not even a year ago but in 2 weeks it will be and how could someone throw away 27 years of marriage ill answer that question I was a bad husband, and she left me for someone she thought would be a better one, now I know what you’re thinking , that its crazy it took her 27 years to figure out that I wasn’t the one for her? No she probably knew this after 5 years but she did it for Hilary and Trish. Our girls she tried to create a “perfect family” for them they never knew when we were fighting which was all the time. To this day they have thought we’ve had the perfect marriage and can’t understand how we split out, I know nothing about Carries life now, as I sit here in my own misery, I cannot fathom how after being with someone for almost 30 years , I still cannot answer the simplest questions about Carrie I don’t know her favorite color or her hobbies or her favorite movie. I know nothing. Right now she’s probably in the Bahamas with her new boyfriend Armando , Carrie , although 48 looks like a hot 35 year old women , her and her 29 year old boyfriend and spending my alimony right now , In paradise.