My dad is the type of person who is never wrong. Regardless of his mistakes, and errors — he is still never wrong. He never showed any love. His way of showing he cared was by buying people materialistic things. His way of forgiveness was by buying people. Growing up I don’t really have a memory of him ever picking up a toy car, and playing with me. His words were always cold, with silence. I could never tell if he was happy or angry — his face always with the same look of disapproval. He was the hardest person to read. Although there was one occasion when I could see a different expression on his face — the moment when the doctor told my parents that cancer had gone away, and no longer spread through my body. Other than that my dad and I had never really got along; our relationship typically always revolved on disagreements and arguments.
Growing up I lived a good life; it is until my dad, and I started to argue day after day. To him everything that I did always seemed to be wrong, and everything he did was always right; I was always wrong.
But our father- son relationship escalated when he, and my mom separated, and later filed for divorce. When the divorce was going on I disagreed with my dad because he acted as if everything he was doing during the divorce was ok. And that is when we started to drift apart.
Our relationship became so toxic, and I couldn’t handle it — so I seeked the help of a professional, because I needed therapy to cope with what was happening. Over time we both grew farther, and farther apart, and now we’re at that point where neither of us speaks to each other.
It had been three weeks since, the session — reflecting on how everything unraveled I am in disarray because I am confused how someone so close to you can be so conniving.
It all started like this “How do you feel about how Stephan feels, about what you have done to him?” Asked Dr. Moore
There was an awkward silence in the room, the air was thick but suddenly Barron answered “I really don’t know what I did wrong. I am very confused – because I don’t know what to do with the situation.” Said Barron
“Nothing you ever do is wrong, you never make mistakes” Said Stephen with anger.
“In your mind, and everyone else in your family, everything that you do is never wrong it is always right.” Said Stephen
“I don’t really understand why I brought you now dad, I am questioning if it was the right thing to do, — Stephen exclaimed “
“I am puzzled as to what you actually hoped to get out of this therapy session” said Barron
Dr. Moore, said “what do you mean you feel “puzzled” as to why he brought you here?”
“I mean I really don’t see how one “therapy” session would help he said with a smirk on his face, to me I don’t really feel that we need to come to some therapy to be able to get along”, the dad said.
“The reason we don’t get along is because you never do anything wrong, and because you never own up to your mistakes. What do you have to say about that?”
“Like I said before I really don’t know what I did.” Said Barron
Stephan was furious but he knew that there is no way of getting through to Barron.
“What do you think is the next step, now?” Said Dr. Moore?
“For the first time in a very long time I really don’t know what’s next— I am confused as to where our relationship will go. But we cannot move on until you don’t own up for what you did, or feel sorry,” said Stephen.
The room was quiet not even a fly made a sound.
“I think that it is best if you leave now, clearly you have nothing left to do here said, Stephen.”
“Barron, I agree with Stephen, I am going to ask you to leave now, please. I was at wrong for suggesting that Stephen bring you to this session,” said Dr. Moore
“I really had hope, and thought this would work — this was not only my last resort but it was the last bit of hope that I had to salvage this father-son relationship, but it is too late now” said Stephan
“I am sorry that you feel that way, but there is nothing I could do to change the way you feel” said Barron.
“I genuinely wish you the best dad.” — said Stephan
“I think you should go now” — said Dr. Moore.
“Growing up I was so envious of you dad, and I always wanted to be like you when I grew up but now after I have seen you turn into this cruel, dis-hearted person I want to be nothing like you. But now I want to try to be the complete opposite person of you.” Said Stephen
Ya know’ said Barron.
After Stephen, said what he said to Barron, he gets up and leaves, and Stephen, and Dr. Moore, discuss what happened.
How do you feel? Said Dr. Moore.
I don’t know I am baffled by what just happened, said Stephen to Dr. Moore.
I guess that he is one of those types of people in your life that you will encounter that you’ll never see eye to eye with and the type of person that is never wrong, said Dr. Moore.
For the first time in a long time I really don’t know what next