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Being Secure With My Insecurity
"All these people in the way." I said, moving through the crowded hallway. At Hilltop High School,
me & my girls are known as the popular ones. We get away with about anything & everything. We
think that everyone likes us, but honestly I know
that some people don't.
I was on my way to my second period class & I
ran right into the bully of the school. " Get your big
self out of the way." she said. I looked at her up &
down, like who did she think she was talking to. I
never had someone talk to me like that in my whole
life of living. " I'm sorry I didn't see you there."
" Well, maybe you should watch were your going."
I said sorry & walked away from her.
While sitting in second period, I was thinking over
what Jesse, the bully, had said to me. I looked down
at my stomach while sitting in my seat & I saw what
she was talking about. I was getting fat. I could see
a lump going over my belt. What was this? I couldn't
be getting fat! I've been exercising & eating all the
right foods. What's going on?
By the time lunch time came around I didn't go
through the lunch line, instead I just set at the table
where me & my friends always met for lunch. Once
my friends had gone through the lunch line, they
came to the table & took there seat. " Hey, Ginger
why aren't you eating?" my friend Tammy asked.
" Because I don't feel so good."
" Oh, are you sure you don't want me to go get you
something? There's some good stuff up there today."
" No, I'm fine."
" OK. Suit yourself." I sat there in silence, thinking
about what I could do to help myself loose this
weight.
When I got home that day from school, my mom
already had dinner ready. It was a big pot of
spaghetti & a pan of garlic toast.
" Wow, mom. Cooking for a football team?" I asked.
" The Rights are coming over from my work & they
would love to have some of my famous spaghetti. Aren't you gonna want some?"
" Yeah. Of course."
" Well go get cleaned up & get that nasty school
scum off of you."
" OK." I take myself up to my room & get myself
ready. I clean myself up & redo my hair. Honestly,
I've never met these Rights people that my mom are
talking about. It's always good to make a good first
impression.
When I finish myself, I hear voices that I've never
heard. It must be the Rights. I go back down stairs
& I spotted the Rights. After we introduced
ourselves to each other we headed to the dining
room table to eat. I finished my food pretty quick,
because I was pretty hungry from lunch. " Mom,
may I use the restroom?" I asked.
" Yes." I excused myself from the table to use the
restroom. When I got to the restroom I locked the
door behind me & I wrapped up my hair & bent
down over the toilet & started throwing up my food.
When I came back out of the restroom my mom's
friend was standing there, about to enter the
restroom, until she saw my eyes were looking blood
shot. " Are you OK?" she asked.
" Yeah. I'm fine." I said, trying to play it off.
She walked into the bathroom & I walked back into
the dining room. We all finished up our dinners &
after that, my parents walked the Rights to the door.
" Ginger,please come down here!" my mom yelled
for me. I got myself up from my bed & drug myself
down the flight of stairs. " Yeah."
" Come talk to us." my dad said.
" OK." I sat down across from my mom.
" Mrs. Right said that when she went to use the
bathroom you came out looking like you just shot up
some drugs. Is that what you were doing?"
" No."
" Then what were you doing?" my dad asked.
" OK, today I've noticed that I've gained a couple
pounds & I don't like how I look. I'm the popular girl
in the school & I don't need to be looking like a big blob."" So, your throwing up your food?" my mom asked.
" Yeah."
" Were you going to carry on with it?"
" No. Just until I saw my weight go away."
" You don't look fat or anything. Your beautiful. You
don't need to change anything. I understand that
your that popular girl & you think that you have to
carry yourself upright. You don't. It's the attitude
that you need to hold upright." my mom explained.
" OK. Now can I go back to my room?"
" Yeah." I went to my room & crawled up in my bed
& escaped into my dreams.
The next day I got my self ready for school, I
looked into the mirror like I always did & thought to
myself that my mom was right. I just know that
people bring you down, because they're insecure.
Not you! I'm perfect just the way I am. I don't need
any kind of change!