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Do you love me?

June 24, 2010
By OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch


“I love you.” he states over the phone, his rich angel’s voice hesitant and tender. He can make it sound like anything.

Oh, you love me now? You shouted at me, called me an idiot, a b****. That was love? When you left me waiting in that fancy dress that I’d bought all for you, at that expensive restaurant I’d had to spend a fortune in gas on to reach—left me waiting there pathetically all night while you cavorted around with some other woman. You call that love? I confronted you—you struck me. I can still feel the flash of pain across my face though it is days later. So this is your idea of love.

“Do you love me?” he whispers brokenly. Did he just ask me that? Did that son of a b**** just ask me that? After all he’s done, he has the nerve to ask me if I love him. I have the nerve to consider the question. My once-dreamy hazel eyes gaze through curling lashes at sights only I can see.

You, holding me in your strong, secure arms. Running your fingers through my dark, curly brown hair. Stroking my prominent, milky-white cheekbone. Whispering sweet secrets in my ear. Kissing my full red lips so gently and emotionally that my head swam for days. Do I love you?

“Yes,” I said dully. “Yes I do.” Wonderful. Did I really have to say that? Now he’ll think I’ve forgiven him.

“Will you give me another chance?” he asks, full of apprehension. Give him another chance? Another chance to carefully mend my heart, only to rip it to shreds? He must be joking.

But who am I fooling? I know the monster that beautiful exterior conceals. I know the infidelity, the lies, the cruelty. And I love him. I love him, I miss him, I want to be with him.

I’ve always prided myself on being a sensible girl. Intelligent, logical, always making the right choice. Right now, my heart and mind were grappling for the right to make this oh-so-important choice. They fought as viciously as a pair of wild dogs, but in the end, I proved myself correct. The mind won out. Self-preservation won out. Love lost.

“No,” I say curtly, and slam the phone down definitively, only to slowly slide down the wall until my head rests in my lap, salty drops splashing onto my crossed legs, sobs echoing throughout the desolate building. I made the right choice. I know I did. Then why does it hurt so much?


The author's comments:
I don't write a lot of short stories, but I love Taylor Swift songs, and one of my favorite ones inspired me. Guess which.

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on Jul. 13 2010 at 8:34 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thanks! I'm glad this was at least somewhat original:)

on Jul. 13 2010 at 8:28 pm
PorcelainShadow BRONZE, Lizton, Indiana
4 articles 6 photos 39 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Don&#039;t hold your tongue, instead, hold your breath, and jump in&quot;

well, at first i thought "wow! this happens to so many people!" i couldnt believe how relatable this topic is! i hear SO MUCH of heart break in poems and stories these days, that i usually grow weary from reading things like this. but i can honestly say that you have added your own twist to it, giving it an originality that actually made me wanna keep reading! well written! (:

on Jul. 13 2010 at 6:52 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thanks:)Love Taylor Swift, so the song inspired me...

Whylime said...
on Jul. 13 2010 at 6:46 pm
Whylime, Brentwood, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
Grief is the price we pay for love -- Queen Elizabeth ll<br /> Don&#039;t go there, I&#039;ll only follow -- ??? <br /> Why is a raven like a writing desk? -- The Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland<br /> Chewing gum is really gross, chewing gum I hate the most -- Willy W.

i like it, sweetie! good work!

on Jul. 13 2010 at 5:54 am
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thanks!  No, this didn't happen to me, luckily.  And the title of the song was White Horse, lol.  But yeah, I love that music video too, and when I started thinking about the story behind it, I came up with this.

on Jul. 13 2010 at 2:43 am
JamieStarr GOLD, Sevierville, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
o! thats why i love you. :) i love you.

i forgot the name of the song that inspired you but the video is when there is a white hores i think and at the begining he asks do you love me can i have another chance and then at the end sshe says no!!! i love that song. and if this happened to you i am truly sorry i have been in this situation b4

on Jul. 12 2010 at 9:52 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thank you so much!  And I feel bad for you:(

on Jul. 12 2010 at 9:03 pm
JustKeepRowin SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Peace begins with a smile.&quot;-Mother Teresa

Wow. Just wow. It's kinda funy. This just happened to me. And you described it perfectly! Fantastic job! Kepp writing. You have a wonderful talent that you shouldn't waste.

on Jul. 11 2010 at 11:36 am
ilove2read124 GOLD, Dix Hills, New York
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Yeah, same!It's like, sure most of them are about relationships, but they're based on realistic things that could actually happen.Like "Picture to Burn" it's basically about a girl whos pissed off at the end of a relationship.That happens, and pretty often.All the songs have true meaning and people can relate to them.You're welcome, you're a good writer, wroters should be told when they're good.=]

p.s.Did you know they made a book about it?Like they wrote the episodes down all in this big book?I wanna read it really bad ahah


on Jul. 10 2010 at 11:39 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thank you!  I tried to make this emotional and relatable.  And it's no problem, I enjoy looking at other people's work.

on Jul. 10 2010 at 11:33 pm
earthycrunchychic SILVER, Canton, Michigan
5 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Adventure is worthwhile in itself.&quot; - Amelia Earhart

Thanks for reading my work - I'm trying to get more of my writing out there, but Teen Ink has yet to post it.  I've read a few of your pieces and I love the way you describe things and people in such detail! I especially like this story because it cuts very deep at a dilemna many girls face. Keep writing

on Jul. 10 2010 at 10:49 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

I completely agree.

on Jul. 10 2010 at 10:28 pm
clairexaudrey PLATINUM, Bethel, Connecticut
41 articles 3 photos 73 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.&quot;<br /> -Elizabeth Kubler Ross

That's what my prose and songs are. I completely understand. I only write when I need to-when I'm mad, lost, upset, or confused. That's when the best kind of writing happens.

on Jul. 10 2010 at 10:03 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thank you!  I wrote this article when I was sad and angry, and it's suppose to tug at the heartstrings, and be relatively relatable.

on Jul. 10 2010 at 9:26 pm
clairexaudrey PLATINUM, Bethel, Connecticut
41 articles 3 photos 73 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.&quot;<br /> -Elizabeth Kubler Ross

Absolutely incredible. So many girls and guys have been in this situation before and your sharp words cut just where they should-the emotion in your writing is palpable. I love it.

on Jul. 10 2010 at 7:55 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thanks!:) 

on Jul. 10 2010 at 7:43 pm
TheChemicalKidd SILVER, Lynn, Massachusetts
9 articles 0 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;I know this world is cold and deceiving, but i keep my head up like my nose is bleeding.&quot;<br /> <br /> &quot;Greater love has no one than this, that he lay his life for his brothers.&quot; John 15:13

Your work is amazing. Keep writing :)

on Jul. 10 2010 at 5:30 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thanks!  And you guessed correct!  I really like that song because, like many Taylor Swift songs, which is why I like them so much, it actually has meaning.  The music video inspired me, because I was thinking of a story behind it. I tweaked it a bit, but they're fairly similar.

P.S.  I love Buffy the Vampire Slayer too!:)


on Jul. 10 2010 at 5:24 pm
ilove2read124 GOLD, Dix Hills, New York
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ahaha this is based on the music video to "white horse" right?i can see it, now.the way she says she loves him, the way he really hurt her, the way she declines another chance, the way she slides down the wall, and starts crying.but this is more focused on the emotions leading up to the choice, rather than the choice like the song, really good.it didn't hold anything back.i really liked it.=] good job =]

on Jul. 9 2010 at 6:33 pm
OfficialApprover PLATINUM, Orefield, Pennsylvania
48 articles 0 photos 1752 comments

Favorite Quote:
Grab life by the balls. -Slobberknocker<br /> We cannot change the cards we&#039;re dealt just how we play the hand<br /> Experience is what you get when you didn&#039;t get what you wanted<br /> It&#039;s pretty easy to be smart when you&#039;re parroting smart people<br /> -Randy Pausch

Thanks!:)