I remember after science in Mr. Butchers, it was a nice day out on our way home. I got a call from my dad while I was with Felicia, my sister. “I am on my way to the hospital Ben has had a heart attack. I will tell you what happens.” I remember wanting to go with him. I remember my heart sinking.

Felicia had to go to a funeral so I was picked up by Dewey. Dewey and I go to Dollar general before Felicia called. I remember wanting to go with him. I remember my heart sinking.

All Ben needed to do that morning was go mow his mom’s yard. That never got done. He never got the chance to go home. I remember texting my friend “I don’t know what I will do if I loose him.” “ We have to go get your sister.”  Dewey tells me with a blank look on her face. I remember wanting to go with him. I remember my heart sinking.

“ Grandma tell me why we have to get Felicia.” I continuously asked but the only response from Dewey was a blank stare or “ I am not goin’ to be the one tellin’ you.” We finally pulled back into the driveway we pulled out of half an hour ago. I remember wanting to go with him.   I remember my heart sinking.

Felicia steps into the car and tells me “Ben died.” The worst news only came in two short words. I couldn’t say or do anything, but cry. I didn’t think  I could cry as much as I did. I remember wanting to go with HIM. I remember my heart sinking.

Ben just died I never got to say goodbye. I will never forgive myself. I had just lost my best friend. He was my favorite cousin. I will never forget him. I remember wanting to go with HIM, I remember my heart sinking.