I sit in silence, I want to speak but can’t. Silence is all that can speak.  The silence speaks for me, it says more than words can say. I feel as if I don’t have a voice because words ponder across my brain but yet I can’t speak them. I weep these makeup filled tears and cry these cries because of you. You is hurt, you put this hurt into my heart but you also planted a seed of love that would one day grown into hurt. Love hurts but love can be good. The seed of love you planted and watered in my heart is hurt. I love you even though you have hurt me. That’s what hurts the most, after everything you have done my heart aches.  I’m done wanted and striving to build the relationship i’ve ever so longed for.

Unconditional love is like a Redhead Bird, it’s rare and beautiful.  Love is such a wonderful thing, yet it can also but the most terrible thing. Love gives and it takes away. If you love someone you will be the person to hold them when they cry and sit in silence with them when needed. 

Anger provides hurt, I have anger. I have anger for you. My anger for you fills my blood streams and rages my heart. One day, one day you will not be able to make me angry. I will forget and forgive but the thoughts that run through my brain will never escape my brain. My anger, my hurt, will never stop the love I have for you, just the respect.