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To understand

October 12, 2012
By Delainey SILVER, Clarkston, Michigan
Delainey SILVER, Clarkston, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
If you want a miricale it has to start with you.


Imagine
As I speak imagine
The life I live
The story I will tell
The truth behind every tear
Can you imagine

Listen to me
The fear I hold
I speak my mind
I won’t withhold
Drifting mists and daring dreams
Shadows chasing endlessly
Screams awaken behind the veil
It’s true this horrid tale

We hide from it
We don’t understand
We won’t admit who has the upper hand

You look at me and you see
But the girl I was wasn’t me

I see a cloaked figure with red burning eyes
Watching me while I cry
Rose’s thorns with encircling vines
Slowly encasing my mind
If I fought would it run free
The girl I was isn’t me

The sadness deafening
A song of wailing mourning
Lost
Lost
Reach through the veil
It appears
A devils shadow
I do fear
You must remember it’s a hallucination
It’s in your mind
Do not listen

We hide from it
We don’t understand
We won’t admit who has the upper hand

It’s the truth
Yet I have prevailed
But I will teach others
That at first I failed

Many years I fought inside
Voices screaming
Shadows threatening
Many times I failed
And I would hide
But through my pain I learned to strive

It does not define me
But I must admit
It has helped me become more
Sympathetic

The truth that hides behind my eyes
The emotions that I feel inside
I’m not the only one who knows
How it feels to be thrown
To not have grasp on your own mind
To awaken and to not find

This is what we cannot hide
What we must try to understand and thrive
We must admit it is real
And that we can have the upper hand and heal
I am not the only one who has fought through this
Depression, bipolar, psychosis

And I will say to all, just admit
If you were in my shoes for just one minute
You would wish too that others could understand
To know that you aren’t alone
That together we can stand

Drifting mists and daring dreams
Shadows chasing endlessly
Screams awakened behind the veil
I know that we can prevail
Listen to me and imagine
Listen to me and understand
A choice, a voice, a push, one tear
Will help even more to erase the fear

I stand before you and say
The girl I was isn’t me
The girl I am
I fight for
Endlessly


The author's comments:
I wanted to let other people know that they aren't alone. It's alright to be different. People don't understand what it's like to have a mental illness and it's not always talked about. But for me it's not something that should be looked down upon. I want to make a difference starting out by telling my story.

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