Am I alive? Am I a ghost?
Thinking about you. I'm completely engrossed.
Was all of this a joke? A lie?
Everything we had, gone, in a blink of an eye.
Our perfect, morbid love.
It's only the outcome I'm not proud of.
Everything is laying in ruins.
When it comes to pain, neither of us are virgins.
I always hated being alone.
You were my king, sitting in his throne.
My heart must stop aching!
It's you I'm retaking!
You're my God, you can't change that!
I don't care if I'm your doormat!
....
Everything is now gone. Nothing is okay.
I can only do as you wish and go away.