day, night, it no longer matters. two things as different as they are must seem so separate, but they no longer are. they are joined, melted into each other. i know not when to rise or to lay.
colors change with the faces i see. their expressions turn from red to blue, green and brown. i do not know if they are happy or sad. only the color speaks to me now. everything else is silent.
music i no longer hear. its once beautiful melody has run away from me. just like everything else it is afraid to get too close...afraid to touch me. afraid to feel.
if i try to speak no words arise. only nothingness. like me. if i cannot speak or hear, i can disappear. deep into the core of the ground. the world will be built up around me and i will remain the same. damaged. and nobody wants what is damaged.
so like sand grains to the wind i will dissolve into the world. becoming it but never feeling it. watching all of the children walk above me and laugh, wondering if this world, the world that i have now seeped into, will be the kind of world they want. will they ever look back. will they know i was here?
i hope not. for if life is a mystery, then i do not want to be revealed. i am gone.

gone forever.