Okay, so, i'm sitting here,
at four in the morning,
reading everything i can,
amazed at the world still.
i don't know how everyday,
things can still be a mystery,
or a surprise,
like the sunrise,
the sunset,
or the stars in the night sky.

but that isn't what this is about,
this is about the twilight books,
and conformity.

okay, so i have a problem sharing,
and i love knowing things that no one else does,
and introducing people to knew things.
so what?
i love this about me,
it makes me who i am.

so when i was reading twilight,
two years ago,
for the first time,
yes, i fell in love with it.
honestly,
i'm not sure if i've ever read a better book.
it was increasingly impressive with each book.

but now,
i can't stand to even think of them,
and i'm not saying everyone who is reading them now is doing it just because everyone else is,
but most people are.
and really, i just want to hit them.
i'm sick of it.
seriously, get yr own lives.

and i almost started hating the books,
and i wasn't going to see the movie,
which i've been looking forward to,
for months now.


but,
i realized,
i can't let people control me like that.
i'm done letting them have that power over me.
it isn't fair to me.
i'm giving up things i love,
things that i've needed for a long time,
just because it's popular?

that's just rude to that thing,
and to myself.
i'm hurting myself,
because i don't like others sharing in what i have.


so, i love twilight,
and i'm going to see the movie soon.