There is a storm raging around me

Streaks of yellow run down from the sky

Excited to pounce

Crackling at the touch of something new

Under a canopy of rain and wonder
I stand, feeling the energy of the world
The days where the rain brought my peace of mind back from the galaxy

The blackness suffocating without telling

Death without leaving the earth

A cycle of pain almost unnoticed

The monotonous energy that has become my life

It surges through my soul

Breaking me open

Rolls of thunder never stopping, like the consuming thoughts

I am a liability; too much even for me

Energy so dark I know nothing lighter

The hues of the storm in my mind are home compared to the ones in the sky  

The sky that I wanted so desperately to be a part of

Is it home or have I become such a prisoner that I cannot leave now?

I feel the energy of something new outside my walls

Hear the rain dripping around me

Whispering bittersweet nothings into my ear

“Hurry”

I shake and I shiver

But I never know who to listen to