The scars I bear from your love

The burns, the pain, and heartache

Speak of messages from above

Messages I was too keen to ignore, in spite of things at stake

I was young, I thought I knew who you were

I was blinded by your charming smile

So blinded by the notion that first love was always pure

That I didn’t realize all the pain you would cause all the while

I was young and innocent

You took that and you used it against me

Convinced me that what you did was normal

I couldn’t leave, I couldn’t tell anyone because there was nothing to see

All my scars on the inside

The pain I feel in my soul

With you I lived in fear, with nowhere to hide

I was stuck not being whole

You broke down my defenses

And when you were done you broke my spirit

I felt like I was out of my mind, like I had lost touch with my senses

And instead of loving my independence, I started to fear it

You controlled everything,

Who I saw, where I went, What I did, what I spent

Always saying the same dang thing

That you “loved me,” and I listened every time, ‘cause I don’t know where my sanity went

I lost myself in your maze

In your lies

Drowning under your gaze

Falling into your eyes

I couldn’t find my way out

As my heart turned black and blue, so bruised

I lost my voice, I couldn’t scream, couldn’t shout

“Somebody get me out! I’m tired of being used”

My screams turn to cries

My will crumbling under the weight of memories

I am free of you, but that doesn’t undo all the lies

All of my unanswered pleas

But I have control again

I have my life back

I’ll rebuild and show you, you won’t linger on my life like a stain

Because I’m stronger than I was when you steered my life off track

I’m not the same, but the life has returned to me

My imagination once again free

My inspiration has come back to me

And you can’t take them away again, so just leave