Like a vacation you took from home

You left us all alone

I know you didn't decide to

But did you?

Mom never told me why

When she had to say goodbye

She only asked if I wanted to 

But all I could say was I love you

I remember how you looked in that hospital bed

Your face all swollen and red

It didn't look like you

But it was you

Maybe it was the fact that I didn't see it happen

That made it feel like you never had a passing

Still I wish you were here today

So you could tell me it’s okay

I remember what you told me when I came out to you

“Chicken princess, Aunt Jolie will always love you”

Sometimes I feel closer to you

Than I am with anyone I ever knew

I remember how I texted your phone

Thinking you would get better and go home

Mom told me you were in the hospital

And I thought you would get well

I wish you were there with me and mom

We dipped fries in shakes while listening to your favorite songs

We talked about you a bit

I almost cried, I wanted to throw a fit

I never felt angry with you

I never understood how people could too

I’m forgetting so many memories

And it makes me feel so guilty

Sometimes I feel like my grief is worth less

I had nightmares about the entire mess

I wonder if you think about me too

Wherever the wind took you

I wish I called you more

I wish I saw you more

I’m taking you as my middle initial

So you’re with me wherever I go