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Two in One

February 26, 2021
By refca24 BRONZE, Monticello, Illinois
refca24 BRONZE, Monticello, Illinois
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I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see.

I don't wanna be and I don't wanna see me. 

I would rather have a stranger looking back at me.


I hate me.


I see a smile on her face that is not broken.

Her worth is more than just a gold token.

Her eyes gleaming with light staring back at me.

 

I love her.

 

All I see is a broken mold of a person with feared emotions.

Bars surround my heart, drowned by the voice of my mind saying words with no devotion.  

I have no motivation, I just need a vacation where I can be someone else, anybody else, everybody else, but me. 

Please God, just let me breathe air and not inhale water, it’s killing me. 

 

I wish she could see what I see, and for her to see herself more confidently.

The woman in front of me is amazing.

If you look into her eyes it’s like your star gazing.

A personality that is out of this world, even though she’s kind of crazy, but that’s ok I like her that way. 

I know she can get through another day as long as she remembers to swim, life won't be so grim. 

 

Never changing forever staying who I am.

There is no old me, there is no new me, there just stuck in the middle me.

There is no hope for change, I can only cope with what I got, and that’s not a lot, forever not being able to turn my own page. 

I'm on my own, I don't need to talk, just let me walk.

I'm not going to waste anyone’s time, I'm perfectly fine. 

 

I know she wouldn't believe me if I told her the woman she is going to be.

Her future is bright, she has to fight.

I know it’s rough, but she can not let life break her.

She has to let it shape her. 


Let life mold you into what I see in you, into who you truly are, into who you're meant to be. 

Just let life lead.


Can’t you see…


When I look in the mirror.

When I see her.

I am me, and you are the woman I see. 


The author's comments:

This is one of the most meaningful, and personal pieces I have ever written. Two in One represents how I see myself now, and who I want to see myself become. This is shown throughout the piece in a two point perspective, yet it's the same person. This shows two versions of myself. One that is unhappy, and feels worthless, and the other perspective, is an older, more confident, and happier version of myself, encouraging the present me that I can be the person I've always wanted to become. 

In some ways I would consider myself to be my own role model. Looking up to the person I want to be, and bettering myself in every way to become that person. 


Two in One is a beautiful poem that shows change can happen, even if it's hard. By surrounding yourself with people who want the best for you, and encouraging you to be a better person, are the ones that you're going to want in your life to make it better. However the change starts with you. What are you going to do to help yourself be happy, and be the person you have always wanted to become?


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