the act of creating is more important than the creation

my brain tricks me into giving it the stimulation

but whatever i create does not live up to the expectation

i am lost in the feeling of indetermination 

my mind refuses to listen to me, insubordination

i am afraid to try again due to the traumatization

it is me against myself in an act of defamation

why can't i just relay what i want to say through communication

without feeling like it's an act of confrontation

i'm trying to use the skill of improvisation 

to get through to you my determination 

but i don't know what else to do,

am i talking to me or am i talking to you

i know this feels very impromptu 

but my mind is falling apart without the glue 

am i going insane? i guess it's true

heeeyyy macarena *clap*