Deep in the darkest pit of my stomach
The unattainable corner, easily forgettable
So endlessly dark
I feel it
It starts with a tingle, a spark of some sort
Like an alert, trying to reach my mind
And a wave washes over me
I am drowned in disgust
At thirteen it began
Teenager syndrome
I feel the utmost disdain
For anyone and anything
Hatred and misery leak through my pores
Everyone I see is an enemy
It’s me against the world
All on my own
Trust nobody, they’ll burn you
Only you can trust you
Happiness makes me gag
Sunlight hurts my eyes
They call me a vampire
They may not be wrong
All I want is to sit here alone
No bothers, no cares
Looking straight at my phone
Scrolling and scrolling the daylight away
Until all that disgusts me disappears
Finally