Well... I feel that when someone hits me, hit me, I can take it but as soon as you call me names or say I'm useless or that I don't belong, I feel like my heart stops and my legs go numb. The question I'm always asking myself is, do I belong? I can't stand myself sometimes because I feel like my body is filled with hate from all I've endured such as being beat until my arm was so jammed it hurt to even touch it then my teacher shaking it like a rag doll or seeing my dead papa, hearing that my grandpa passed away, hearing that my grandma has Alzheimer's, and seeing my dog die. Losing my friend that was helping me through it all hurt bad and now... I just feel broken, beat, unfixable.

This is a toughie, because I'm so sensitive and emotionally fragile; if other people have thin skin, mine is like waxed paper. Words other people speak hurt me under these conditions: when I disagree but I don't feel welcome saying I disagree, when people assume I'm a certain way but I'm not, when people try to criticize my outward self while ignoring my inner turmoil, and when people tell me to be quieter. Words that roll off other people in minutes make me cry on and off for weeks. Deep down, I know the lies these words trigger are just not true. But I bury myself in my hurt feelings. Sometimes I feel proud and sassy and feel ready to stand up for myself, and other times I just mouth the lies. I will never defeat my true self; she will come to my rescue someday. And if all else fails, the time is ticking away to when I can escape home.
So, how about you?