You are a great person and I hope you know that.

I know.
On Monday I heard suddenly that a loved one of mine died of covid-19, and these days have been consumed by my shock, grief, and depression.
I had never felt such sorrow until now, even though I'd lost both grandparents before, nearly lost my dad, and had a brother move into a group home. I guess I used to want to simply break free of everything, but sorrow has two sides: it hurts like heck, but it is also makes you kind and strong and empathetic. When the greater pain of someone else inevitably makes me feel guilty for not having it as bad in life, I must remember that all the demons lies and mistakes don't mean anything in the end--how you rose above with dignity and grace and kindness, That's what matters.