Regret is the worst emotion.

You can only blame yourself for it.

Emotions like anger or sadness can always be deflected.

"If she stayed, I would still be happy."

"If my grandpa were still here, I wouldn't be sad."

"If they didn't act like that, I wouldn't be mad."

Regret can’t be avoided as easily.

It's a direct result of who we are.

Regret becomes even more painful when it keeps resurfacing.

It's like you're telling yourself, 

"You haven't changed enough."

"You haven't been trying hard enough."

"You're stuck like this."

We all like to pretend that we'll change,

But very few of us actually do. 

We always say, 

"This time will be different",

But most of us just end up back where we were.

With that wave of regret still washing over us.

It's been years, 

And I still have the same regrets.

And here I am, 

In the same bed, 

Still full of regrets, 

Unchanged.

It hurts.

It hurts a lot.

It never stops hurting.

But even though it hurts,

I still need to have hope.

In fact,

This is when I need hope the most.

If I give up now,

Nothing will change at all.

Can I honestly say I'm okay with that?

Plus,

What harm is there in trying again?