Dear God,
I called out for you.
Got my knees and pressed my folded hands to my lips
my eyes shut tight
and I spoke out loud
I begged
pleaded
wished
and hoped
I told you I'd change
I'd do this
give up these habits
anything
all for one reply
your words
I need them
I need guidance
show me light
I'll open my eyes wide open
for you
tell me what to do
fix this,
my home
this world
did you create beauty only to watch it fall apart?
They say everything happens for reason
please explain your reasoning
starvation
abandonment
cold
harsh
dark
your children
how can you stand to watch this
as we tear eachother apart
our mothers, fathers,
brothers and sisters
take my sins
and wash them clean
open my heart
I promise you
faith
I promise you all of me
I prayed to you
called out
and all I got
was silence
where are you
where were you
when I needed you
love,
Erin