Final Decision
I am floating
I see myself on the ground
I see my box
I see such a lovely box
I see my family so sad
I see my friends so confused
I see myself so nothingness
I smirk at myself
I am nothing
I mean nothing to these people
I laugh at them for their nerves
I can not believe they showed
I know what they did to me
I know how they put me in this box
I know they put me six feet under
I see it in their faces and grin
I see their regret as they gather around
I see them gather around my box
I see them weep their good byes
I watch as they say nice thing for a change
I laugh at their real skin
I smile knowing they pulled off their plastic
I grin when they said that they did not understand
I knew they understood my only chose
I saw that they understood
I saw they knew what they did to me
I knew that was enough
I had gotten what I wanted
I needed to get back to life
I could not figure out how to do that
I just floated there watch and waiting
I knew it hit home
I saw them close my lid
I saw them throw me in the ground
I saw them toss the clods of dirty
I felt the cold clay as it smacked my coffin
I felt my insides rip
I felt a scream crawl between my lips
I heard the silence
The silence of Death
I knew that this was the ultimate decision
I knew that this had been my final decision
I knew that I had gotten everything I wanted
I knew that they felt sorry
I knew they won
I was dead and they were alive
They could go on living while I was stuck
I was stuck six feet under