I’m scared

That if I stand still

These thoughts will drown me

So, I chase down vacant dreams

Hoping a real one will find me in its shadows

Plastic

Hopeless

Disastrous

Is what they call me

I lost the real me the day you turned your back

And I still can’t understand why you did

Flawless

Beautiful

Desirable

Is what I wish I was

Or at least, I wish, that’s how you saw me

I’m terrified

That I’ll lose myself in this chase

So, lay with me for a while

In my wake-less empty dreams

I won’t be sleeping for long

I promise

Now.

Is the time to change

I will let go of these reigns

And forgive

Believe me when I say I loved you

But understand that it’s too late for us

I can’t leave my heart in this fire forever

Waiting for you to save it.