Why can't I stop it?

Stop loving you?

It's insane but

I think I may have

Fallen in love with

Your smile

Your hair

Your eyes

Your laugh

Your…

I think I may have

Fallen in love with

Your everything.

But I can't.

I can't love you

Because loving you

Would mean life

As we know it

Would end.

And it would be all my fault

Because I'd be the one luring you in.

Destroying your

Reputation

Social status

Innocence.

Everything that means

Something to you

But

Nothing to me.

It would all

Be my fault

Because you can't help

Being perfect.

You're unaware of

My feelings.

You're totally content

With him.

But still I yearn for

Your warm touch

Your gentle kisses

Your light laughs

Everything that you

Give him.

I know I'm being

Needy and greedy

Wanting something

That I have no right taking.

I know you don't feel the same

And I hate that we've never

Actually had a conversation

Alone, just the two of us.

He's always been there

Always worried

That there may be something

Going on between us.

And I don't blame him.

He knows me better than anyone.

And he must know

How I feel

Just by the I look at you.

And if you were any other girl

And if he was any other guy

You would already be mine.

But I just can't

Get up the nerve

To destroy our friendship

To ruin your relationship

To turn everyone against us

I just can't do that to you.

You're just too sweet

Too unsuspecting

And just because I love

Your everything

Doesn't mean

We belong.

I just need to accept that.