Si tu Savais
If only you knew how much I cried,
If only you knew how often I died
Even from the smallest look you give me, I die every single minute
I try not to be this way, but life happens.
If only you knew that Im not always this happy and goofy
I have to keep a smile in order not to make anyone get upset
because,
Im not living for myself, Im living for others
I am the strength that carries other people,
yet I am never
good enough.
I try very hard to keep myself sane,
for I know it hurts you to scream my name.
If only you knew how I really felt when he hurt that woman, and she turned on me.
If only you knew how scary it was to see him constantly put her down with the strike of his fist
to see those people crowd around me and laugh
as if I were the funniest thing they ever saw
If only you knew how i cry myself to sleep every night
Because every night I have done something to myself
that has disgraced everyone
If only you knew
that i was burned
deeper than hell itself
If only you knew
how much I really loved you.
If only you knew
that i dont sleep, because i am afraid to see his face again
hitting her, putting her down, making her feel like nothing
If only you knew, that no matter how much I tried, I was never good enough
Si tu savais.