I conceal from you my yearnings
hoping to quell this
unrelenting ache
with veiled care
and simple friendship
and yet your warmth reaches for me
extending past the barriers
I have set
You want what you do not understand
ask for something you cannot
comprehend
one night is not enough
to quench this thirst for you
one night is not enough
to satisfy my hearts' desires
why can't you see
that one night is all it would take
to make and break my world?
I would go mad with the memories
and fanatical with hopeless anticipations
of a next time that could never be
I conceal from you my yearnings
choosing to live my life
devoid of the passions and elation
only your skin, your feel, your taste
can bestow me
I choose this life
for tortuous dreams of what could be
will sustain the need for that
which I covet
until the day when my meager hope
dwindles
and my heart and body finally comprehend
that you are not,
not will you ever be,
mine.