My mind was confused,
my body was being abused.
Should have i turned to you?
When you treated me like trash,
you and dad would clash,
and i was the one to blame,
since I supposively took your'place,
in the picture frame.
Your lust was a mistake.
Dad's love was only fake.
He used me for his desires.
Made me believe that home,
was a place of fire.
You could not see,
past your jealousy.
Now you believe,
where you are,
is where I want to be?
I turned to you for love,
I turned to you for comfort,
but you shut the door in my face, accusing me of being the one
my father chased.
you dare say you love me,
now that the storm has cleared?!
What was i thinking?
Believeing you
were the one to fear?
You ran away from the hurt.
While shoving the ones you love,
in the dirt.
You left us behind,
without a single sign.
We thought you would come back,
just one last time.
But months and years past by,
and we never knew why.
So we took seperate routes.
There was nothing else to lose.
Now it is me alone,
with the life I did not choose.
Stuck without the family,
I was forced to lose.
Still waiting on the day,
you will walk through the door.
To say you will stay,
Forever more.