it's 3:57 am
and you're still on my mind.

the fact that you crept into my head after

I sealed all windows shut is beyond me but

the raw thoughts are haunting me again tonight and

you said that you would be here.

where are you?

it's 3:58

and oh, my pillow still smells like you

and I think I'm intoxicated on our

memories and broken promises so

maybe if I could just

get some sleep I wouldn't be waiting for a call when even my phone is sound asleep

where are you

it's 3:59

each ticking second reminds me of how

time was endless with you.

my vision is blurred like the

way you used to make my sadness feel

and that sinking feeling is
back again and you

said that you would be here

you're not here

so where are you?

it's 4 am now

and the sun will be up soon.

I'm scared to fall asleep because I'm

haunted by the idea of waking up.

I miss you so much that

I don't think I should get up tomorrow morning

(??or ever again??) and you said

you'd be here but you're not and why are my eyes leaking

oh where are you

where are you oh where are you oh where

it's 4:01

maybe you're up missing me too

but I doubt that.

my pride doesn't hold me the way that you used to

and neither does independence

it hurts me so bad to

imagine another day without you

baby I'm tired

my eyes are so heavy and so is my sorrow

it's a heavy burden to Cary all alone

and i sure hope you're having dreams of

you and me

it's 4:02 and

you're not here.

oh but darling, these hours are so long

and my tears left bites in my wrists.

if only I could go back in time to when you were

mine because

I can't sleep in this bed without you in it and

baby I want to die

without you and

I miss you so much and

I can't sleep and I'm

sorry and it's 4:03 and you're not here and neither am I anymore so

where are you oh where are you oh where are you

it's 4:04 am.