Praying to a god i don't believe in.
Praying, pleading for your return.
Only waiting to re sieve more disappointment.
Trying hard to forget you but with all these pictures and memories burned into my skull it's like trying to erase something written in pen.
Pushing away all men scared to love cause of what you taut me.
Setting us free, you leave us, your blood, your three kids.
All you ever did was wee to me and i agree, i should leave you be but letting go is one of the hardest lessons I've ever learned.
As far as loving you, I love you with all my heart just the spirit of me hates you.
It's like someone took a knife and simply cut you out of my life.
Waking up one morning as a family only watching it be ripped apart every moment the day goes on.
As your glass empties, the joint burns on, crying on the stair case waiting for it all to be over.
The fighting left and right, glass braking, bottles being thrown watched every bit of it saying goodbye to the only father i have that night.
I close my eyes reopening them to where i am now.
Confused, happy, disappointed, and moving on...
For once in my life giving up on something. No I'm giving up on you.