True love…
What a sickeningly confusing phrase!
I once thought I was acquainted with such,
But now…it is all a ruinous calamity.
Happiness…
What a word of the past!
While I once was lost in a field of endless bliss,
I am now drowning in a sea of unforgiving agony.
My heart bleeds daily…
Oh! How I wish it would simply cease to beat!
Only then do I feel the anguish would end!
That I might become a hollow, immortal shell…
Immune to the sting of tears and sorrow.
The question continually arises…
For whom does my heart beat on?
Is it he that did love me once, but now has run cold?
Will his love ever return to its original state of beauty?
Or is it he that has never loved me, to my knowledge
That continually visits me in my thoughts and dreams?
The one for whom I fret that my plain, mortal being will never be fit for..
The one that illuminates the fire within my soul…
The one I fear terribly that I may be falling for,
A thousand times over again..
What cruel, violent torment my heart must face!!
Will not someone free my being from this misery!
I fear that I am fading..