I Used To
I used to see the stars at night
I used to see the moon follow me on the way home
I used to tell my mom everything
Now I just want her to be proud of me

Where did the stars go?
Why did the moon stop following me?
Why don’t I tell mommy everything anymore?
It’s the ozone layer of my mind covering these
Questions up

I used to cry waterfalls with ease
Now waterfalls don’t come easily
The river dam is shielding the water from
Flooding out
Yes there are minor cracks,
But they don’t come easy
Where did the tears go?
Why don’t they come easily anymore?


So many unanswered questions
Yet I ignore them and keep living
Because I’m stronger
but I leave these questions unconquered

Will I ever solve them?
I never ask myself because maybe-
Just maybe
I can’t handle it

So for right now I know,
I don’t see the stars anymore
Now I do not see the moon follow me on my rides home
Now I don’t tell my mom everything
Now I do not cry waterfalls with ease
Now-
Is this where I want to be?