my voice of reason
slowly wanders
as urgent deciding factors
hauntingly become
harder to realize

Choices
become more important
as these months
dash by

Decisions
become more difficult
with each day
replaying through
my compact thoughts

Questions
flutter my clouded brain
cramming my vision
every flowing second

a voice repeats forcing
a murmur to evolve into
a roar with each week
that slips through my
grasping palms

searching for an inkling
of an explanation, yet
concrete walls cover my mind
every hour I yearn for,

desperately needing
these critical moments,
still they disappear
before I even obtain
their guidance

while this time
I envision
escapes
every minute
after
minute
that is
wasted away.