Please don’t cry,

Please don’t fear,

Please wipe away all those tears


For I will be alright,

For I will be fine,


Maybe not today,

But soon


Please don’t cry in fear,

Please don’t be sad in anger,


For you make me happier,

For you make me feel like I matter,


Do not feel like it is your fault,

Do not feel like your methods have failed,


It is not your fault,

And your methods succeeded,


If they didn’t succeed I wouldn’t believe I am beautiful,

I wouldn’t believe that I mean something,

I wouldn’t believe that I matter,


I would believe I am nothing,

Worthless,

Dumb,


But I do not,

I have a purpose in life,

I am beautiful,

I have reason to keep living,


Maybe you won’t believe the words I say,

But I believe the words that you say,

I believe the compliments you share,

I believe the sentence,

“You are beautiful”


It took me a while,

It me a long time,

But wasn’t it worth it?

Through all the crying, screaming, yelling,

Blaming, cutting, and starvation,

I am okay.


For you helped me believe,

You helped me save myself,

At my darkest hours,

You managed to create my brightest smile,


No matter how sad I am,

No matter how mad I am,

No matter how jealous I am,

No matter how upset I am,


It’s not because of you,

It’s because of me,

It’s because sometimes I hate that I’m not good enough for people,


Maybe I cry sometimes because you aren’t “mine”

But I cry for other reasons too.


You can’t keep blaming yourself for my biggest mistake,

None of it is your fault,


Don’t believe me,

But what I say is the truth,


You can hate me,

You can give up,

You can stop being there for me,

You can leave our friendship,

You can stop caring,


But one thing I will never do,

Is say,

“I love you”

And lie.