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Self Destructive

March 31, 2014
By HudaZav SILVER, Toronto, Other
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HudaZav SILVER, Toronto, Other
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"Nothing is impossible; the word itself says 'I'm possible'!" -Audrey Hepburn

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Love me for my messed up hair
Even though you could never run your fingers through it
Without getting caught in the mess of it yourself
In fact, you would get caught in my mess of everything
I treat my past as not my past, but my present
I cannot let go of what is long gone
And I would drag you into my past
Like a time machine

Love me, even though I am hazardous and
Self-destructive
Screwed up
Self conscious
But the good news is that opposites attract
And we would be perfect together

Love me for my eyes, though their embers are dying out
And you would rarely get to see them sparkle
"Eyes are windows to the soul"
But I should draw my curtains close

Love me for my irreparable heart
Long ago, my heart was replaced
By a broken record stuck on replay
Stuttering through the same old tune
Its sound waves rippling through my body
Like the surface of a pond
I cannot promise much but I can promise this
I can love you like you deserve
And I hope that is enough
Love me for loving you

© Rosalie P., Pompton Plains, NJ

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HudaZav SILVER said...
on Dec. 23 2016 at 12:52 pm
HudaZav SILVER, Toronto, Other
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&quot;Nothing is impossible; the word itself says &#039;I&#039;m possible&#039;!&quot; -Audrey Hepburn

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Thank you so much! I'm so glad that you could relate to my poem on a spiritual level. Also your friend's boyfriend sounds like a keeper.
Beila BRONZE said...
on Feb. 20 2015 at 3:24 am
Beila BRONZE, Palo Alto, California
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I have no words. You gave voice to my soul. The second stanza--hazardous and self-destructive, screwed up, self-conscious--is priceless. You reminded me, also, of a good friend of mine, who has an incredible boyfriend. He truly doesn't mind getting caught in her past as long as he gets to run his fingers through her hair and she loves him back. You've captured so much in so few words. You have a gift.
HudaZav SILVER said...
on Aug. 28 2014 at 12:33 pm
HudaZav SILVER, Toronto, Other
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Thank you very much! And I'm glad you liked 1984, it's my absolute favorite =)
midnightwoah said...
on Aug. 27 2014 at 9:42 pm
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I enjoyed the repetition of Love me, and the deeper message inside it. My favorite line was, "By a broken record struck on replay", because a record can replay without being broken. Also, thank you so much for recommening "1984" for me, loved every page!
CheesePie BRONZE said...
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Awesome poem! I love the last line, perfect but for some reason never thought of till now. AWESOME :)
Myvoice4change SILVER said...
on Jul. 12 2014 at 7:39 am
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I feel like maybe this could use more rhythm but that's just my personal opinion. I especially like the last verse! Good idea. and actually this could be a song . have you ever thought about turning this into lyrics?
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very very relatable
Ariel_Fluffyy SILVER said...
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This is a very beautiful piece. I enjoy reading this. Great Job!!
sparrow-at-flight BRONZE said...
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Beautiful <3 so happy I found you acocunt!!
midnightwoah said...
on Jul. 8 2014 at 5:24 pm
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Very unique, you used your word choice very carefully and it made the poetry stand out. Keep writing!
Sissybug2012 PLATINUM said...
on Jun. 27 2014 at 9:57 am
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Love this...
lydia.w GOLD said...
on Jun. 26 2014 at 10:33 pm
lydia.w GOLD, Myerstown, Pennsylvania
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I really like this. I love how you keep saying love me even though there are flaws
MissExploration BRONZE said...
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I absolutely loved your repetition of the words "Love me" in every stanza. It ties the whole poem together. 
SabrinaFaire SILVER said...
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This is great, it truly made me feel the words!
gboo12 SILVER said...
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Absolutely perfect I loved it. Evoked so much emotion
Ashers101 DIAMOND said...
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That's amazing. I really liked it. Good job :)
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Beautifully done all around
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i love dark poetry and this is just it!!!!!
it had been a long time since i read something this good. keep writing more... :)
uncomfortableBrunette SILVER said...
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This is pretty good! I like dark poetry, and I found this suited my tastes! I like how its about having already gone through to many heart braks, and yet still not giving up!
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on May. 14 2014 at 8:46 pm
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It was interesting. I liked it. Good word choice and writing overall. I really, really liked it, even if I'm not much of a poetry guy. Haha. Good job