I can't speak of the things I am sad about in my life
I will not open my mouth and tell you things
you can't help me with
you only take what will benefit you
and that's what I do
that's what I do
I've got a heavy load on my back
and I cry a few days each week
maybe one time
I'll go a week without crying
and then a whole month
without the desire to sob
I am so alone
in my own head

I don't get out much
But I would like to
I guess I can't fix some elements in my life
and when I'm around the world
I'm tongue-tied and afraid
and so very far from anywhere I stand
I ask him to say I love you back
it breaks my heart to have to ask him
because he never speaks
without me putting myself on the burner
just to be sliced time after time
all the other guys
who have touched me in the past
I wish they didn't

I am consumed
walk away
but stay for another day
their hands felt me
and I'm sorry
sorry for it all
for being so impure
and I'm sorry it's not that pretty
after looking at something for so long
its appealingness fades
I do love myself
but people say they don't love me
I know I'm content with who I am
but their dislike for me hurts
because I'm a person with self-love and compassion
and when you say you don't feel me
I don't know how to react
because I didn't do anything to make you put me down
I know I'm not on the same page
and they say I'm unique and a bit bleak
but I don't feel that way
don't that mean something?
I think I'm nice and gentle and very tolerant of life
I appreciate being alive and I'm fond of my world
it's some humans who upset me
and I know it's a pity
how petty it is to feel ashamed and slammed by their voices
I would not talk bad about them
so why speak bad about me?
you only take what will benefit you
and that's what I'll do
that's what I'll do