It’s time to say goodbye
Time for me to wipe away my tears.
The moment has arrived
And the detached feeling in my chest is momentary.

I can’t feel my heartbeat
Nor pulse
It’s just a silent cavity.

My head is the same,
As if there were no brain to give me weight.
No brain to remember,
To relive the memories we made.

But like I said
This feeling is only temporary.

Immediately
My head feels a million pounds,
Heavy with the laughter and teasing jeers,
Infuriating conversations and sweet remarks
Echo in my ears.
My eyes burn with unshed tears.
Tears that hold a fire,
A fire that burned inside for so long
Wanting to be released.

My heartbeat screams,
Pulsing furiously,
Wailing in pain as it shatters and rains,
A thousand pieces stab my soul.

This is goodbye.
I don’t like it:
It hurts worse than any other goodbye
I have ever said before.

Like a dagger was thrust inside me
And twisted around
Until the pain crumbled
My denial to the ground.

I had refused to listen
To pay attention

To try and save myself from heartbreak
But in doing so
I am in agony.

I wipe away my tears,
Silence my sobs
Fix my hair
Turn around
And now I whisper
“Goodbye”