It’s another one of those days

Where I see what you've been doing without me

And I wonder what’s happened with you lately.

We've been broken apart for a long time, but not because of experiences gone wrong.

In fact, every memory of you is pleasant, I treasure each one.

Our parting was not in somber moods, it happened slowly,

So slowly we didn’t realize it happened

Until it did.

I didn’t realize it at first, until we were both distant, caught up in our own lives, in our own countries, in our own worlds.

I tried to reach back out to you

To cover up the gap that was so inevitably

Leading to the destruction of the sacred bridge

Of our minds and thoughts that were so entwined and so connected to each other within just a few hastily-typed messages

I look over them all the time, and I think about sending more to you,

But when I do, I see the old ones piling up, unanswered, and I sadly realize,

I can only do so much.

We’re busy, we silently agreed, glad to put a name to our unwinding bonds and to ease the guilt on both our parts.

I haven’t felt anything of the sort since, neither have you, I suppose.

I feel caught in the middle, longing for the old relationship we had, but not caring if I never hear from you again,

Because for once, I thought I found someone who didn’t leave me, but you did

It just took you a little while longer than usual

I’d be willing to help stitch the slowly healing scar, but it’s now your turn to try,

That’s why I’m not giving it another attempt,

Partly because I am giving up on you, as you have done to me,

And also because I am afraid that if you respond to me, I can’t handle it again,

This is my way of letting go, my dear friend,

I can only hope you read this somehow and know it’s for you,

Because I am too timid to dedicate this act of my feelings to you.

Best wishes,

From a soul that has long since been removed from your life, if somewhat peacefully.