I’m crying out in rage.
Filth and disgust,
A shadow I must remain.
There’s no way out,
These gates are closed.
I crawl around
On decapitated bones.
I hear screams
Of the lost souls.
That became nothing,
The same as me.
I hear the taunting laughter,
That feeds off all my sin.

I’m screaming out in pain.
Shame is smeared in blood,
Right across my chest.
The only thing I feel.
Blades razor sharp,
Pressed up against my skin.

I fall and break my bones,
Wish I could walk again.
I’m lying on the floor,
Rejected and alone.
With scattered memories,
Never again to be found.

Burning hell and misery.
Forever torment, bleeding hearts.
Poisoned minds, and guilt
Coming from confessions.
I can only blame myself,
Thinking I could
Just forget the mistakes I’ve made.

I try and try
But the dark haunts me in the night.
Captures all of who I am,
And tears the flesh inside of me.

I wish I could go back
And look into that mirror.
Tell myself
That I was wrong.
Admit my failures,
And give it all to Him.

Wish I could have seen
All that I had,
That is now gone.
I own up to it now,
But it’s too late.

I live in the devil’s hand.
The only thing I am,
Is a puppet in his game.
I live in hell,
I now know why.

The biggest thing
I could have done
To turn it all around,
Was to forgive.
The one who hurt me most,
Was me.