When it was quiet, it was like the whole world bcame silent

I would stare at walls and contemplate

Everything I never tried to be

I would think of the past

Forgetting the present for a time

I would bite back all the screams in my throat,

And let them out in my head

My head

Where bruises would form later on

Where I'd banged it against a wall

Where I let out my frutrations about myself

Yet I did not shed a single tear

The pain on the outside surpasses the pain on the inside for once

Wraps me in its warmth

Helps me forget to remember

When I cannot stand remembering anymore

When it was quiet, I was quiet

I couldn't be anything more if I tried.