Leaning back with tired eyes closed
I hesitate to let memories unfold
Yet, regardless of my attemoted pause,
They appear and remind me of my flaws.
A silhouette forms amidst the smoke
Of a petite girl. Her full, red lips spoke,
"Stop trying... Give up... It's futile."
I crumple, and sobbing, I embrace denial.
Her cruel words pierce my heart
Triggering my unraveling to start.
My sight agonizingly fades first
At this point things can't get worse.
What's this? I was wrong.
Now my ability to sing is gone.
Two of my joys are no longer there.
The world is slowly soaked with despair
As much as I attempt not to care
The flaws I suppressed resound everywhere
Nowhere is safe, no place to hide
How much longer is this nightmarish ride?
Frightened eyes shooting open,
A single thought, just one token.
Relief that I'm awake
But there aren't enough breaths to take.
I'm still consoled, it was just a dream
Yet... I still feel it isn't all what it seems.