Still she lay
In the residue of his storm
Still she lay
Thirsty for companionship
Still she lay
Keeping her wondering thoughts to herself
Still she lay
With a bleeding heart
Still she lay
Wondering what went wrong
Still she lay
With aching bones
Still she lay
Because that’s what she was condemned to
Still she lay
As the winter wind swept across her
Then..
Not so still she lay
She proper herself up by her elbows
She took in the disaster that engulfed her sight
She stood up
She screamed a blood curdling scream
She didn’t care any longer
She was not the same
She rejoiced
She rejoiced like no other human being had ever celebrated before
She was grateful for the pain
For the struggle
For the agony
For the lies
And for the torment with which she had become so familiar
She was alive for the first time ever
She gazed up at the black sky above her
She took in the deep darkness and admired it
She then recited a vow
Softly
So softly my ears strained to hear
She said
“I will never lay still
Not today
Not tomorrow
Not a week from now
Not nine years from now
I am now in motion
I will never be slowed
And I will never be stopped
The time I wasted laying still will be forever lost
But I will live enough now that I’ll soon forget
I’ll forget when I laid still
I’ll forget when he released a tsunami in my life
I’ll forget when I thirsted
I’ll forget when I didn’t speak my mind
I’ll forget when my heart bled
I’ll forget when I cast the blame on myself
I’ll forget when my heart was so broken it caused my very bones to pain me
I’ll forget when I let others define right and wrong
I’ll forget when I had laid there
But I will never forget the winter wind that changed me”