My heart ached
it still does
with gloom that seemed endless
with fog that was so clear
but how so
how could something so vague
seem so unblemished
so translucent
I knew
within my heart
within my mind
that it was limitless, so durable
I wished
every second, of every day
that it would just slip away
fade away
but I was sure it wasn’t
I was sure, but I still wished
I was me at times
but another person at others
a person I know not of
a one, so cruel, so inhuman
a person I’m ashamed of
it was as though I had two minds in one body
when it was actually one body with two half minds…