Lights are flashing

Glass is crashing

Am I dead, or alive?

They whisper, "She won't survive."

Body is lifted

Reality shifted

On a stretcher getting rushed away

So many unsaid words I wanted to say

It's my fault

My alcohol tolerance was way too high

I caused innoncent souls to die

Drinking

Lost judgement and thinking

The light is coming, I know it is

Nobody in my state ever lives

I'm the cause of all this damage

It's my fault

People's voices surround my mind

White light making me blind

Nostrils filled with sanitary smell

Am I going to Heaven or Hell?

I see my lifeless body laying there

Skin dripping in blood that was once so fair

My auburn hair caked in leaking red

Pooling out of my busted head

Everyone frantically running around, trying to save my life

They do not know I've walked towards the light

It's my fault

My parents; they rush in

Drop to the floor weeping from my sin

I've torn too many lives apart

It's my turn to depart

The pain is gone and my heartbeat fades

There's nothing they can do, I can't be saved

It's my fault I know it is

I don't deserve to live

All of a sudden darkness confides

I know I am gone for I have died

It's my fault

I can hear voices once again

Where am I? Where have I been?

"She's awake!" They scream of joy and delight

Memories flood back from that awful night

Here comes the sanitary smell

I should have died that night, for my reality is worse than hell.