I remember the time we were both back in elementary school.
We didn't see each other during class as often as we should have
but we would hang out on the play structure during each recess all the time,
twice
if our teachers gave us the extra time of the day to do so.
Nothing could tear us apart.
I would make the fifteen-minute walk after school to hang out with you.
We would play halo, CoD, or maybe
if it was the weekend
we would play hide n seek in the dark as I spent the night.
We were young,
innocent,
nothing could tear us apart.

I remember the time we both graduated with our 5th-grade degrees
we were told that next year we were big boys going to middle school.
This time, would be different.
There would be more teachers and more classes that we had to attend.
We were both given options of what we wanted to do
again the school tried to keep us apart by putting us in different parts of the school.
That couldn't keep us apart.
At lunches and recess, we still saw each other
those were the best forty-five minutes of the day.
Then again the world was tired of our friendship
it tried to break it
separating us in the eighth grade.
You moved away and had to go to a new school
the universe thought it had overpowered us
but yet again
we beat it
we won.
Whether it was my house or yours we saw each other on the weekends
every week,
because we were one
and we needed each other.
Then again we beat the system
you coming back to our school
to be in our marching band
because it was ours.
No matter how hard they tried
nothing could tear us apart.

I remember how it wasn't til' after those three years
that we started to go down different paths.
You were more curious about human affairs
you did things that not many kids do till later years.
Where I was more cautioned and followed the rules
I was afraid of what could happen if I didn’t
I was afraid because I knew
it was wrong.
During that summer, I didn't see you as much
I still felt the connection that we had was so strong that
nothing could tear it apart.

I remember the first years of high school
which you and I both know we're tough.
We both had different friends, some the same, some not
some of them were seen as ok by the other, and some seen wrong
but we didn’t speak up
I didn’t speak up.
We both made our choices from the paths light and dark
I honestly thought that we could work out our differences
have the friendship we had were
nothing could tear us apart.
However now it's not just me that worries about you.
Mutual friends and I both agree some people and things aren't healthy for you.
Right now it's you that makes your decisions my job
is only to be here for you when you need it
when you decide that it's time to go back to the way it was
when we were both kids on the playground.
You always say there's no problem
that you're perfectly fine, but in reality, it’s easy to see,
others agree,
that things need to end before they become untreatable like a tumor in your head.
I know there's no way you’ll believe what I’ve said
understand!
That it's the reason we all have trouble speaking with you.
We want to be your friend and include you in things
like hanging out, playing games,
or even friends birthdays.

Yes I know there are things about me that you'd like fixed
so if you would like to write your poem about me then fine
please
I insist.
Next year you won't be here
I'm certain the connection,
our connection will fade.
That feeling of our bond never being torn apart.
That feeling I hold so dear to my heart
will end.