In a dark room, in the middle of the night
The first thing you do is turn on a light
It’s a simple process really
Just flip a switch and suddenly, you can see
No longer will you trip over any obstacle.
Or bruise your knee hitting a desk.
Just a flip of a switch, and it all becomes clear.

How tempting it is,
When your soul is so dark.
To just flip a switch.
And then everything will be alright.
But you will be changed.
Your emotions will no longer stop you,
No remorse and no apologies.
Because suddenly you can see.
How useless it is to feel.

For every name, whipped over someone's shoulder
Or a bad grade on a simple piece of paper.
How do you feel?
Rage? Grief? Sadness?
A swirling storm with lightning flashes.
But it so easy to just fall into it.
Let it destroy you
Or you destroy it.
But then it would all end.

No longer will a night on the town
Make your heart soar and flutter
Your friends will just be pawns in place of a game
One wrong move to prove them useless
And they are cut out.
But then again, you wouldn't care.

Every single blow to your body will be nothing.
The mentality of abuse.
The feeling of being used.
No more.
Just a switch in a dark room
And all the clouds roll back.
The sun shines through

But suddenly, you’ve changed.
For every person who steps in your path,
They must have use or they must go
No care for anyone.

The girl you love, becomes nothing
Yes you feel your heart breaking
As it happens
She slowly grows distant and slips through your fingers.
It hurts you, you know it should.
But you flipped, and you can’t care anymore.

The friend who once helped bear your burdens
Is now another face, in a sea
There is no escaping it.
Once the switch is flipped
You will not want to go back.

But god, it’s still there.
Every cruel thing you do will not just disappear.
It will become buried under layers of sand.
Layer after layer
Crushing down into rock
To weigh on your mind.
Nights of no sleep
And days of cruelty.
It pulls and tears at your mind
Saying “See me, Feel me.”
Acknowledge and move on from what you’ve done
But alas you cannot
You flipped a switch.

Every single thing that will drag you down.
You will feel its presence.
See it behind your eyes.
There is no care.
No need to be released.
Nothing.
You don't want to go back.
Though you can feel your mental state deteriorating.
You wouldn’t ever want to do that to yourself.

Should you flip it back on?
It all crashes back at once.
Years, months, weeks, days.
However long it’s been.
If you choose to start feeling again
All the things you have shut out
Shoved down, ignored
Will crash through your soul
All in one instant
The pain of what you’ve done
Remorse, guilt, horror

All the relationships lost
People you’ve destroyed
Because you couldnt handle yourself
You couldn't face yourself
Or your conscious
So you turned it off

So go ahead, flip a switch
In a dark room.
Avoid a little hurt from bumping around
Be blinded by the light
Till you can no longer function In the dark
For every day after that, you wont care
You will know what is right and wrong
But you will be above that.
And you can sit and watch
As it destroys you so slowly
All because you flipped a switch

My definition?
Sociopath