Sometimes I wonder,
Why?
Why is this disease,
Eating me alive?
What made me deserve this?
What made me so weak?
What made feel,
As if I can be beat?
My head is all full,
My life feels broken.
My body feels old
And wishes to be open.
What happened to me?
My goals?
My mind?
The devil fills me,
As I lie awake all night.
Everything is gone,
There’s nothing inside.
Where is the light?
What happened to the sky?
The ground, the earth,
Where am I tonight?
Everything I loved,
Everything I lived for,
Is rotting away,
No longer in store.
The fight is over,
The war is complete.
My mind has won,
And I have been beat.