There is not an end in sight

I try to fight with all my might, but my might has never been strong enough to keep me from falling down deep into the drags of

I don't want to live anymore

I used to believe in angels

Their wings were the soft gentle on my cheek when I needed Mommy, but Mommy was down in the basement crying to Jesus

Doesn't Jesus know there is no replacement for a mother's touch?

An angel cannot fill the hole I feel within my gut

The basement is where my ghosts sleep when they aren't haunting me... and there are more than skeletons in my closet

Yeah, I used to believe in angels and fairies and unicorns and the power of good... the tale of a Heavenly Father and the tale of Robin Hood

But reality attacked me, I do not know when exactly, something smacked me, I grew up, and Superman never came

I don't need a saving grace

I don't need a red (or is it blue?) flying cape

I don't need a halo or a "superhero" with two different names

I don't need a psychologist to tell me I'm not the one to blame... I just need some air

I need oxygen, but the one who fertilized my seed, donated his sperm, and gave me the right to breathe, the one they call my father is suffocating me

He's suffocating me

His hands around my throat and his knee in my gut, I can hardly breathe, and all I want to do is cut

But the blood is still within me, I will not rip my skin again because cutting is not an inhaler

The way to heal a butterfly is not to impale her

I will stay away from sharp edged cuz I don't work as a tailor

How to kill a butterfly?

I guess you should drown her

Self-destructive thoughts- I don't really want to die, but if I stay alive now, he will kill me in time...

I'm in a dangerous situation and there are no exit signs

I've tried asking for help, but no-one hears my cry

I thought I could be Rapunzel, swing myself from the tower

Buy blond extensions? Should have grown my hair longer

I didn't want to need a hero, thought I'd be my own knight, but it's hard to wield a sword that's more than half of my height

Defeated

It's how I feel inside

Like the sassy, spunky, Power Ranger girl has gone down for the very last time...

I'm going down for the very last time...

The very last time... the very last time...

But I'm coming up again