Is it still funny when one is hurting not just because of others actions but their own too?
Tell me that; tell me if it's still good for that person to be "okay."
Is it okay that I feel like it's always my fault that bad things happen,
whether they have to do with me or not.
I always think everyone has a problem with me.
I have no idea if that's actually true but it always feel like it.
I wonder if anyone feels the same way.
I wish they would speak up if they did. 
I only know that I seem to be the problem...but how do I fix that?
Can someone help me? Please?
I just want to be a normal kid who is happy and good not weird and bad and annoying.
My idol, says in one of her songs that she will be right here year after year for you.
How? When she doesn't even know me.
Can someone explain how I am supposed to change when this is all I have ever known.
All I have ever known is to disobey for attention.

I'd like to change that so it's not always my fault when something goes wrong.