Darkness:I feel it in my bones, my body, my blood.

It has consumed my motivation, productivity

And most of all, my desire to succeed.

I know not how the darkness came to me

I cannot remember a time without it saying "are you sure" or "you can't possibly become that great"

A second voice screams "but you can succeed and do well!"

However, that voice is slowly suffocated by questions of doubt and cunning statements.

"Why would you want to do that" or "you just aren't smart enough"

My brain cowers in fear as it watches the darkness taunt my bones, my body, my blood.

Four hour long naps after school, panic attacks, and the feeling of defeat are all regular occurrences.

Feeling tired all the time or jittery every second make studying impossible

In frustration I cry "I want to succeed, I really do!"

"Well maybe you just don't want it bad enough" others say, not knowing of my inner demons that control my mind.

Shame fills my bones, my body, my blood.

What's wrong with me- I should be able to overcome this.

My bones, my body, my blood plead for some relief from this burden

But nothing comes

And nothing will.