Why is it so hard for me to be happy? What did I do to deserve this? Have I not been the best person I can be? I am compassionate, empathetic, caring, and thoughtful. Yet that is still not enough. No matter how hard I try I can't seem to be happy. It's like sadness can't get enough from me. I'm happy for a second then all of the sudden my sadness is back again. Why won't you leave me alone? Have you not taken enough from me? What have you done to make me feel so incomplete? My happiness can not longer compete. I've therefore given up. It's like I can no longer breathe. I'm drowning in the big open sea. Can anyone save me? I'm tumbling into a dark pit of despair, yet no one seems to care. Why can no one see that I am hurt. I am broken. I am lost. I cannot be found. I'm living in a hopeless underground. I can't do this any longer. I'm too far under. No one can save me now. Sadness has taken control and it isn't fair. Why is it so difficult to be happy? I thought happiness was key, well at least according to me...

I don't know what else I can do. I always seem to feel so blue. Maybe there's someone who can help me heal. But normally all they do is steal. I end up more broken then before. My heart has never been so sore. I'm in a million pieces. Somebody please just hold me. Why do I constantly feel alone. I know I have a loving home. Yet I feel so empty on the inside. Like a hollow shell of my former self. Sometimes I can't comprehend whether or not it should all end. It's gotta get easier somehow. Please don't let me drown.