You are unaware

of the things you have caused

of the pain

and damage you have inflicted

I'm lying here

screaming

lord thake me

now

I always tried

to tell you how I felt

to show you all my pain

no one knew

as my sleeves got longer

it took

almos forever for you to realize

what my real problems were

I understand now

how undone you had become

I understand now

why everyone expected

so much

all I can say is,

it's tough.

The one thing I don't know,

or never knew

was why I was always

the demon child

I didn't do anything to you

being outcasted like this

it really hurts

I never understood why

and maybe never will

being hurt 

and contested

like this

was never my choice

all I ever wanted

was to be happy

but it looks like I failed you, mommy.

Im sorry mommy.

i'm sorry I was such a dissappointment

i'm sorry I was so useless

i'm sorry I was suh a disgrace

i'm sorry I was always antisocial

but most of all,

i'm sorry I was born.